Right now I'm sitting in a hotel room in NJ. Matthew has some testing to do at McGuire so I came down yesterday to hang out with him. It's been well over a month since we've had a normal weekend together, and a little over two and a half weeks since we saw each other last. It felt weird seeing him again. Like it was new or something. There was a lot of hugging when I first got here but for some reason I felt awkward. Things are definitely different between us now; it feels like there is a space between us. Hopefully that is a good thing. This morning at breakfast I was introduced to another pilot as "this is Sara". Not, "this is my girlfriend, Sara". Well, it's true, but it still felt weird to hear.
I'm going to hang around here until he's done and then we're going to hopefully spend the rest of the weekend in Rhode Island. Yeah... plans changed. It's supposed to rain all weekend so instead of going to NYC he wants to go to RI. We'll be walking around in the rain either way, but I'm sure we'll have a good time no matter what we do. I'm not getting my hopes up or expecting anything to happen... we broke up and we're hanging out as friends. That's it.
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That in between phase is so hard... just remember to keep your heart guarded a little right now. He's the one that should be begging for your forgiveness and trying like hell to win you back. Not the other way around.
Glad you guys are getting to spend some time together - just be cautious about the "friend" title. Don't have friends who make you cry yourself to sleep at night or make you doubt your worth... k? :)
Big hug and lots of well wishes for a great weekend!
I agree w/kj. I do know your weekend was fairly good though. too bad it had to rain so much. jll
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