Merry Christmas

I haven't posted in a while but boy do I have a lot to say. I don't have time now to write but I will say this...

1. My first "real" love got engaged on Christmas Day.
2. I haven't heard from my real REAL love in what seems like a long time.

But the best part about that is - I DON'T WANT TO HEAR FROM HIM!! I don't even want to see his face!

I guess I've reached the "angry stage". But I did get a Christmas card from him, which was closed "See you soon. Love, Matthew. My mom got a card too. In fact, oddly enough, I think he's talked to her more than he's talked to me lately. Well, we haven't even talked lately. I wished him a happy birthday on the 24th but neither one of us contacted the other on Christmas Day. And I'm so glad for that because it brings a little bit more closure.

Getting through Christmas without him was easier than I thought it would be. Although it was hard at times because I was supposed to be with him visiting his family and attending his brother's wedding. But if you know anything about his brother's new wife then you know I was much better off not being there!! So I am actually glad I didn't go!

I have some good news though. I went out on a date on Christmas eve and I have two more dates, with different guys, on Monday and Tuesday. Don't read too much into that - no it's not rebound and no I do NOT sleep around. To me it's more meeting up as friends than it is dating, but the word "date" sounds better :) At least I'm going out and having fun. Or trying to anyway.