Happy New Year

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still
I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still
I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye

A part of me will always be with you...

Merry Christmas

I haven't posted in a while but boy do I have a lot to say. I don't have time now to write but I will say this...

1. My first "real" love got engaged on Christmas Day.
2. I haven't heard from my real REAL love in what seems like a long time.

But the best part about that is - I DON'T WANT TO HEAR FROM HIM!! I don't even want to see his face!

I guess I've reached the "angry stage". But I did get a Christmas card from him, which was closed "See you soon. Love, Matthew. My mom got a card too. In fact, oddly enough, I think he's talked to her more than he's talked to me lately. Well, we haven't even talked lately. I wished him a happy birthday on the 24th but neither one of us contacted the other on Christmas Day. And I'm so glad for that because it brings a little bit more closure.

Getting through Christmas without him was easier than I thought it would be. Although it was hard at times because I was supposed to be with him visiting his family and attending his brother's wedding. But if you know anything about his brother's new wife then you know I was much better off not being there!! So I am actually glad I didn't go!

I have some good news though. I went out on a date on Christmas eve and I have two more dates, with different guys, on Monday and Tuesday. Don't read too much into that - no it's not rebound and no I do NOT sleep around. To me it's more meeting up as friends than it is dating, but the word "date" sounds better :) At least I'm going out and having fun. Or trying to anyway.

Count your blessings...

 From the 1954 movie "White Christmas".

 When I'm worried and I can't sleep
 I count my blessings instead of sheep
 And I fall asleep counting my blessings
 When my bankroll is getting small
 I think of when I had none at all
 And I fall asleep counting my blessings

 I think about a nursery and I picture curly heads
 And one by one I count them as they slumber in their beds
 If you're worried and you can't sleep
 Just count your blessings instead of sheep
 And you'll fall asleep counting your blessings

Cabin Fever is going to kill me

Right now, instead of driving to Ohio with Matthew to visit his family for Christmas, I'm laying on a rock hard bed in my mom's guest bedroom listening to my brother play video games in the next room and watching a rerun of Oprah on a 13in television that doesn't have a remote. And it's snowing so I can't go out. Not like I have any money to go out anyway. Trust me, it's a lot more miserable than it sounds. But such is my life...

Hello Readers!

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Recent Pictures

Saturday afternoon hanging out with the best girlfriends in the world...


Sunday afternoon baking Christmas cookies with Mom and sis-in-law...




Richmond, VA


Colonial Williamsburg, VA


Hampton, VA


National Museum of the Marine Corps
Quantico, VA


Mom's Christmas tree and Phoebe

Wish I could live by this...

Life is too short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly. Love deeply. Forgive quickly. Take chances and never have regrets. Forget the past but remember what it taught you.