Really moving on now

Well we ended up talking but it wasn't very enjoyable. It was short and friendly enough though. I'm just sooo tired of it. I don't want to get back together with him anymore so I'm just really wanting to move on. Of course that's easier said than done, especially in this case. I am so glad he is gone for the next four days. That will give me a break from thinking about him and if we're going to talk or if he's going to text me or email me. You know it never would've worked out with us anyway because of his job. I want a boyfriend who lives in the same town as me, who can plan a weekend away with me and not risk having it cancelled at the last minute because of a mission. I didn't like not being able to really do anything boyfriend/girlfriend-ish with him. Everything revolved around the air force. So the relationship really would've ended eventually anyway. We can't meet each others needs. It's just too bad that I didn't realize this before I moved! I thought that maybe we could get back together some day, and I know he hoped for that too, but I don't believe it's possible. Maybe we can become friends one day, but even that I don't believe can happen. We've been through too much. We just need to part ways. This afternoon when he called he said that he'd like to get together the weekend after Thanksgiving. I said I wasn't sure and that we'd see when the time gets closer, but really I'm not interested. What for? He said to do some shopping and I guess Christmasy stuff like look at lights and stuff. I don't want to be friends right now, so there is no point in hanging out. Especially for a whole weekend. I want to start going out on dates and put him out of my mind. Not as a rebound thing, but just for fun and to remind myself that just because he doesn't want me doesn't mean I'm not wanted.