I'm sorry

Well I fucked up again. All I do is fuck things up. I touch something, get involed with something, I end up fucking it up. Some how, some way, if I get involed something will always go wrong. Especially in relationships. I just can't be in them. I fucked up my relationship with Matthew and recently a wonderful man came into my life and I just fucked it up with him too. I'm such a hazard to myself and to others. It's just not meant to be for me. I don't deserve anyone to love me. And trust me, I have my reasons. I'm done dating. Unless by some divine intervention... I'm done. I can't stand myself and no one should have to deal with me either. Especially not wonderful people who deserve much better than what I give.